Tonight….tonight was probably THE
worst performance of my life. I’m not just talking about halftime the entire
game was awful. After I hit the final stunt I instantaneously felt how awful I
had done. It hit me like a ton of bricks, I couldn’t bring myself to even look
at the coaches. That might sound like a little silly, but that’s how bad I
performed. This was the game in which we really needed to bring our A game
because there where cheerleaders from others schools there. We don’t really get
to see other cheerleaders throughout the season, region and state is our time
to see other school’s cheerleaders.
Tonight I failed the coaches, my
team, but most importantly I failed myself. I didn’t really realize exactly how
much cheer means to me until this year. Of course I had always liked cheer
otherwise I wouldn’t wear this uniform and cheer/perform at the games, but this
year I realized that I love it (this is not to say that I am the best
cheerleader out there because if you’ve ever seen my jumps you know that’s not
the case). Regardless of that, if I were told I could never cheer again I would
probably die because I would have nothing to do with my time. By this time
everyone knows about the trouble that I happened to get into. When I realized
how that was going to impact cheer, I literally broke into tears. All I could
think of was not being able to cheer again, what if I got kicked off the team?
I couldn’t even handle the thought of not being able to go out there with my
team. And to be quite honest the academic punishment was nowhere near as
painful as renouncing captain. Still to this day I do not regret stepping down
because it was for the betterment of the team.
Back to tonight, this game was just
so embarrassing because we all know we could have done better. We went out
there and did everything half way. I know I wasn’t out there giving it my all,
for all I know that could have been the last time I ever got to do something I
love! Thankfully it’s not, but that’s not the point…we never know when will be
the last time we get to see someone we love or do something we are passionate
about. This super embarrassing game has reminded me to give everything I do my
all, 110% and more if possible.
You're so adorable Isabel. You are my favorite cheerleader out there. I love that you joined cheer. You have progressed so much since coming in last year. I still consider you as one of the captains, too. Don't be so hard on yourself. It was a rough night for everyone. I felt bad about everything turned out that day for us. It made me really want to step up my game and try way harder than what I've been doing this whole season. You're always positive about everything in cheer and the fact you were that upset about it shows how much you're dedicated. We all made up for it on Saturday with our killer performance and boss a** attitudes.. plus our lib was fire. (: State we will DOMINATE. Rather the boys make it all the way or not, the cheerleaders are gonna leave that place remembered as the baddest cheerleaders out there!
ReplyDeleteYou are what its means to be dedicated. You are what it means to strive. You are what it means to truly care for your team. p.s. your jumps ain't bad. ;)
ReplyDeleteIsabel, first I just wanna say I'm so glad you listened to me and joined cheer! (; Im so glad you fell in love with it! I seriously fell in love with it when I first started. I do wish I cheered this year but I had to work and I thought it would've sucked. Haha but anyway you are the cutest cheerleader! Everyone has their bad days but honestly we all know you are amazing. You got flying way before I did. I still can't do it. You are amazing. One bad performance means nothing to your many great performances. Whenever I would go to a game I would just watch you, you seriously catch people's eyes!
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